View this post on Instagram Dealing with emotions. // 🇱🇧❤️ Here’s a story I wanna share to get a huge brick off my chest. On the 4th of August I was supposed to film a project in the heart of Beirut. Due to lockdown, we pushed the shooting date till the second week of August. On August 4, me and my team were in Gemayze and Mar Mkhayel re visiting the shooting locations to finalize everything. Flashforward: I had a call with my father earlier today and told him I have never felt that weak in my entire life. I am not able to see Beirut the way it is now. I don’t feel ready. I am ashamed for not being ready to go! I’m the “face your fears kind of girl” - why am I like that now? I said goodbye on the 4th of August only an hour before the tragic explosion. I was in Gemayzeh the same day scouting for beautiful locations for an upcoming project. I was with my beautiful team. We spent the whole morning/afternoon there. I told my friend, “I miss Beirut. I miss driving all the way from where I live just to have a cup of coffee in a cozy “Beiruti” coffee shop. Beirut inspires me. Me and my brain are in denial now. I don’t want to see the Beirut I’m seeing on tv and social media. But I have to. I have been having recurrent dreams since Tuesday, they are all about Beirut. The port, Mar Mkhayel, Gemayze, عنبر ١٢ Random dreams with random visuals of our city. My father said, “Don’t worry, this is a natural part of grief. Your brain is on overload with thoughts of grief and shock.. People deal with emotions and traumatic events differently.” Beirut, I’m sorry. Beirut, see you tomorrow. Beirut, you will always inspire me. (Pictures were taken on the 4th of August in Gemayze and Mar Mkhayel. Technical recce /Planning my next project with the team) And this project (whenever we decide to film again. Whenever our hearts are healed) will be a tribute to our Beirut. 🙏🏾... A post shared by Zeina Makki زينة مكّي (@zeinahmakki) on Aug 9, 2020 at 7:59am PDT
Dealing with emotions. // 🇱🇧❤️ Here’s a story I wanna share to get a huge brick off my chest. On the 4th of August I was supposed to film a project in the heart of Beirut. Due to lockdown, we pushed the shooting date till the second week of August. On August 4, me and my team were in Gemayze and Mar Mkhayel re visiting the shooting locations to finalize everything. Flashforward: I had a call with my father earlier today and told him I have never felt that weak in my entire life. I am not able to see Beirut the way it is now. I don’t feel ready. I am ashamed for not being ready to go! I’m the “face your fears kind of girl” - why am I like that now? I said goodbye on the 4th of August only an hour before the tragic explosion. I was in Gemayzeh the same day scouting for beautiful locations for an upcoming project. I was with my beautiful team. We spent the whole morning/afternoon there. I told my friend, “I miss Beirut. I miss driving all the way from where I live just to have a cup of coffee in a cozy “Beiruti” coffee shop. Beirut inspires me. Me and my brain are in denial now. I don’t want to see the Beirut I’m seeing on tv and social media. But I have to. I have been having recurrent dreams since Tuesday, they are all about Beirut. The port, Mar Mkhayel, Gemayze, عنبر ١٢ Random dreams with random visuals of our city. My father said, “Don’t worry, this is a natural part of grief. Your brain is on overload with thoughts of grief and shock.. People deal with emotions and traumatic events differently.” Beirut, I’m sorry. Beirut, see you tomorrow. Beirut, you will always inspire me. (Pictures were taken on the 4th of August in Gemayze and Mar Mkhayel. Technical recce /Planning my next project with the team) And this project (whenever we decide to film again. Whenever our hearts are healed) will be a tribute to our Beirut. 🙏🏾...
A post shared by Zeina Makki زينة مكّي (@zeinahmakki) on Aug 9, 2020 at 7:59am PDT